At times in life, you'll get so depressed that you just want to not do anything and give up. Basically that's just throwing tantrum when you are fed up, tired or mentally exhausted. It is just reasonable and understandable because humans have feelings, have threshold for stress coping.
And so I was depressed, I was stressed, about studies, about why everyone around me seems to be smarter than me and pick up/ remember things better than I do. That feeling hasn't stopped ever since I step foot in Australia, if only, it gets even stronger because I've spent 5 months here now and I'm still as hopeless as ever. Also, I was upset that difficult phases of life has to happen to me when I was having my down time, like my grandmother passing away, like having housemate issues over here in Australia etc.
I cried when my grandmother passed away, I complained a lot to friends all around about my stress, about my housemate issues. But that's all history now, I should held my head up again and walk on. It's reasonable to have a holiday off your life to leave things behind your mind once in a while, to take a break and sort out the emotions but after that, you got to be strong and face the reality again and move on. All the support from family and friends should not be wasted, they are there so you know that when you're defeated you've got a wall of support behind you.
So, the plan is to move on. How so? We'll see. 见步行步. One step at a time.
