北海

终于回到了北海
我的家
半年没回来了
这次回来心情交错复杂
首先是平静吧
家乡的一草一木，一个灯柱
足以令我平静下来
这里的慢脚步生活
让我平时活跃的头脑，也得到了该有的休息

再来是不舍吧
少了大学朋友的热闹
至少得过一个月较静的假期
是有中学朋友在啦
不过不是人人都在
而且也不是每天在一起
总是有些不一样

还有就是今早回家之前
忽然听到了一个坏消息
威润遇上车祸现在昏迷不醒
也不知道能不能挨过今晚
祈祷奇迹让他苏醒过来吧
其实我和他并没有很熟
中学有谈有笑吧，还一起参加活动
从认识他中了解他，确实是个难得的好人
听到了消息还真的愣住了
他是我们一群朋友中第一个将要离开的吧
世事难料
大家为他祈祷吧

灰

从前的我们总得分黑白，分好坏，分对错。
黑是全黑
白是全白
好人舍己为人
坏人坏事干尽
却不知道有灰色地带的存在
好人做坏事
坏人本性善良
人生不再是只有对与错的是非题

从前开心就是开心
不开心就是不开心
从没想过笑容背后会隐藏着悲哀
更没想到有些笑容是假的
我们长越大，就越难找到开心的理由
开心中夹杂着烦恼和忧虑
很少再有无忧无虑畅怀大笑的时候

我并非心情坏而写
只不过有所见，有所悟

Movie Review

Watched 3 movies in the past one week, not including one more that I watched at home. Actually I didn't intend to watch so many movies though it's after exam, but it happened because the tickets for the intended movie, 2012, was sold out, twice!!
The night right after exam, I went to Sunway with a gang of people wanting to 2012, but the tickets were sold out so we watched Ninja Assassin instead.

It's really cool. Effects are good (not really awesome), thrilling, giving you adrenaline rush every moment and some funny scenes. It's not for those with weak hearts as there're bloody scenes throughout the entire movie, though I would say they're rather fake =P. All in all, I enjoyed the movie, a really good stress  reliever after exam.

The second time again I went with my friends to watch 2012 in Midvalley, but again it's sold out. So we watched Christmas Carol.

To others the movie is not nice, but to me it's good movie, and I would say it should be somewhat meaningful to chose who celebrates Christmas?
Here's the synopsis:
'On Christmas Eve in Victorian England, Ebenezer Scrooge, a bitter and miserly old moneylender, holds everything that embodies the joys and spirit of Christmas in contempt, refusing to visit his cheerful nephew Fred's Christmas dinner party with his family, and forcing his underpaid employee Bob Cratchit to beg to take the day off for his own family. That night, Scrooge is visited by the ghost of his former business partner, Jacob Marley, who had died seven years prior on Christmas Eve and is now forced to spend his afterlife carrying heavy chains forged from his own greedy ways. Marley warns Scrooge that he will suffer an even worse fate if he doesn't repent, and foretells that he will be haunted by three spirits that will help guide him.
The first spirit, the Ghost of Christmas Past, shows Scrooge visions of his own past that take place on or around the Christmas season, reminding him of how he ended up the greedy man he is now. He had spent much of his childhood neglected by his father over the holidays at boarding school until he was finally brought home by his loving sister Fan, who died prematurely after giving birth to his nephew Fred. Scrooge later began a successful career in business and moneylending and became engaged to a woman named Belle, though she later called off the engagement when he began to grow obsessed with accumulating his own wealth. Unable to bear having to witness these events again, Scrooge extinguishes the spirit.
The second spirit, the Ghost of Christmas Present, shows Scrooge the happiness of his fellow men on Christmas day. Among them are his nephew Fred, who playfully makes jokes with his family at Scrooge's expense, and Bob Cratchit and his family, who are just barely able to make do with what little pay Scrooge gives Cratchit. The Cratchits also tend to a sickly young son, Tiny Tim, whose commitment to the spirit of Christmas touches Scrooge, who is dismayed to learn from the spirit that he may not have much longer to live. Before the spirit vanishes, it warns Scrooge about the evils of Ignorance and Want, showing them as terrifying, uncivilized children doomed to grow into savage, despicable individuals.
The third and final spirit, the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come, shows Scrooge the final consequences of his greed. Tiny Tim has died, leaving the Cratchits to mourn him on Christmas. Scrooge has also died, though there is more comfort than grief in the wake of his funeral. In addition, Fred finds benefit from inheriting his wealth, and Scrooge is even robbed by his former maid. Unwilling to let this grim future come to pass, Scrooge begs to be given a second chance as the spirit forces him into his deep and empty grave leading all the way to Hell.
Scrooge awakens to find himself in his bed on Christmas morning, the three spirits having guided him over the course of one night, and immediately sets out to atone for his sins, making donations to the poor, attending Fred's dinner party, and giving Cratchit a raise to care for his family, allowing Tiny Tim to live. Scrooge spends the remainder of his life a new man embodying the spirit of Christmas itself, and the film ends.'

meet Mr Scrooge...

And finally, just 2 days ago I went to watch 2012 with my friends in Times Square after a karaoke session, and this time we finally get to watch what we wanted to watch!! 2012!!!

The movie started off very boringly, but the good parts came after the earth starts to crumble. The escaping scenes are cool, though kind of fake because somehow they just manage to escape when others don't =P.

Synopsis:

'In 2009, American geologist Adrian Helmsley (Chiwetel Ejiofor) travels to India to meet his friend Satnam, who has discovered that neutrinos from a massive solar flare have penetrated the Earth and are causing the temperature of its core to increase rapidly. Adrian returns to Washington D.C. to inform White House Chief of Staff Carl Anheuser (Oliver Platt) and US President Thomas Wilson (Danny Glover) that this will instigate a chain of events that will bring about the end of the world. At the 36th G8 summit in 2010, other heads of state and heads of government are made aware of the situation. They collaborate to begin a secret project intended to ensure the continuity of human life, strategically choosing 400,000 people for admission on a series of gigantic arks to be constructed in the Himalayas. To help fund the venture, additional individuals are allowed to purchase tickets for one billion euros apiece.

In 2012, micro-quakes have started to occur causing small cracks in the earth's surface. Jackson Curtis (John Cusack) is a writer in Los Angeles who works part time as a limousine driver for Russian billionaire Yuri Karpov. Jackson's ex-wife Kate (Amanda Peet) and their children Noah and Lily live with her new boyfriend, plastic surgeon and amateur pilot Gordon. Jackson takes Noah and Lily on a camping trip to Yellowstone National Park, where they find their usual camping spot fenced off while government scientists, including Adrian (now a White House science advisor), monitor the situation. While in Yellowstone, Jackson meets Charlie Frost, a radio show host and conspiracy theorist. Charlie supports a theory that suggests the Mayans predicted the world would come to an end in 2012, and claims he has knowledge of the ark project and possesses a map of the arks' location. Jackson believes he is a rambling drunk and leaves.
Adrian returns to the White House with ominous news - the earth's temperature rise is accelerating. The evacuation plan is set into motion. Meanwhile, Jackson's family returns home as cracks begin to develop along the San Andreas Fault in California and earthquakes occur in the San Francisco Bay area. Jackson grows suspicious and rents a private plane to rescue his family. He collects his family and Gordon when the Earth's crust displacement begins and they escape Los Angeles as it collapses into the Pacific Ocean.
As millions begin dying in apocalyptic earthquakes worldwide, the group flies to Yellowstone to retrieve Charlie's map. The group narrowly escapes as the Yellowstone Caldera erupts. Charlie, who stayed behind to make a live broadcast of the eruption, is killed by the blast. Realizing the arks are in China, the group lands in Las Vegas, where they meet Yuri, his twin sons, girlfriend Tamara, and pilot Sasha. They join the group and secure a larger plane, the Antonov An-225, to head across the Pacific. Also bound for the arks aboard Air Force One are Anheuser, Adrian, and First Daughter Laura Wilson (Thandie Newton). President Wilson remained in Washington D.C. to address the nation one last time. He is soon killed by a tsunami that sends the USS John F. Kennedy crashing into the White House. With the Vice President dead and the Speaker of the House missing, Anheuser appoints himself acting Commander-in-Chief.
Sasha discovers that the plane doesn't have enough fuel to get to China, so they have to make a crash landing in the ocean. But as they get near the ground, they discover that they are indeed in China, as the earth's crust has shifted.
Yuri, who has purchased ark tickets for himself and his sons, deserts the Curtis family, Gordon, and Tamara upon arriving in China. However, the abandoned group is picked up by Nima, a Buddhist monk. Together, they begin sneaking onto an ark through its hydraulics chamber with the help of Nima's brother Tenzin, a welder for the ark project. In his last moments, Satnam calls Adrian to inform him that a tsunami is engulfing India and heading towards the arks. Learning of this, Anheuser orders the arks be sealed before the boarding process is complete, trapping thousands outside. Adrian manages to convince the other G8 leaders to let the remaining people on board. As the ark's tailgate is lowered, Gordon is killed when he falls in between the gears, followed by Tenzin's large electrical power drill. Yuri sacrifices his life to get his two sons on in time, but the obstruction prevents the gate from closing, rendering the ship unable to start its engines. The tsunami arrives and begins to flood the ark, drowning Tamara and setting the ark helplessly adrift. Jackson and Noah work together to free the drill and its cable from the closing mechanism. The gate closes and the crew regains control of the ark, preventing a fatal collision with Mount Everest.
A title appears that says "Day 27 Month 01 Year 0001"
When the floodwater from the worldwide tsunamis eventually recedes, satellite data shows that Africa rose in relation to sea level, and its Drakensberg mountains are now the highest on the planet. As the arks set sail for the Cape of Good Hope, Jackson reconciles with his family, and Adrian starts a relationship with Laura. The movie ends with a view of the Earth revealing all continents have merged, and are in the shape of the African continent.'

Still, I would say it's a very nice movie, definitely a praise for it's effects, and a some funny scenes too, especially with Yuri!!

Well, some people told me The Day After Tomorrow is better than this, but I'm yet to watch that movie, so no comments.

Murni 27/28-11-09

Woke up yesterday morning at around 10, skipped badminton invitation and lazing around on facebook. Settled my lunch at Kyan's house eating Domino's pizza.
After that went to OUG with Shu Yee in search of a clinic to do our GP posting. We walked and walked the entire OUG, visited 3 or 4 clinics but the doctors were all not around. Really swt. So we took the contact number of 2 clinics and left. And it already started to rain when we left, luckily not pouring yet.
After I reached home, Jared called, asking me out to Midvalley with Wei Hsuen and Amman. So I waited for Amman to come and we went to fetch Jared and Wei Hsuen at Jared's house.
Randomness, and more randomness to come. Jared say to meet his friend at Ali Maju, the mamak at Help College main block. So we went to park our car at the main block carpark, then walked through the main block to go up to the shops. Damn nostalgia man walking through that familiar path, and this is my first time walking through it after A-levels ended. We walked to the mamak to find it's not open. So came the question, how can Jared's friend be at mamak when it's closed? And Jared explained that we're only there to wait for his friend. Conned us.
Then Jared told us that another gang of his friends are in Jaya One eating dinner so we shall join them instead. And so we drove, past Midvalley to Jaya One. We reached there around 5.30, and Jared's friend are only coming at 7pm. And they're gonna eat steamboat. Then another question came, what are we gonna do after steamboat?
After much debating, we decided to drive back to Midvalley, our original plan, to eat Popeyes there since we heard it's so awesome and since Wei Hsuen and I hasn't try before. And it was awesome indeed, better than KFC and McD, like much better. Then after that we walked around the whole Midvalley in search of Jared's dreamgirl, a model with initials MT =P. Spent quite some time searching and forcing Jared to flirt with her, we finally managed to videod down the evidence of Jared's pro-ness!
And after all those trouble, we're hungry, we walked around Midvalley and Gardens to find sweet and sour pork for Amman to fulfil his cravings. And while searching, a sudden idea came to us, to eat in SS2 since we haven't been there for some time now, and so we drove all the way to SS2, and we ate at Murni!!!

Wei Hsuen and Amman's Napolean chicken fried rice. It's awesome according to them!!!

And we ordered 2 special drinks, the yellow one - I miss you, and the purple one - I love you!! They taste awesome!!!

My claypot Lou Shih Fun, another of Murni's specialty, and it taste heavenly!! The minced chicken meat cooked so deliciously, the lou shih fun soft and yet not losing it's chewy, and the egg.....cooked but not hard, with the yolk slowly leak out when you poke it!! OMG!!!!

After the satisfying meal, we went to a cyber cafe nearby to play call of duty with Jared's friend, and as expected we lost terribly, pawned by Jared's friends. After 3 games Wei Hsuen and I decided to stop and play dota instead, with random people in the cafe. And dota was depressing as well, as 2 of us became the most noob people in all 3 games we played, haha and we even got scolded for being such noob!! lol

After all these it's already about 3am, and we were so thirsty we decided to go Murni again!!! lol

This is Murni at 3am!! Still damn crowded!!!

Amman and Wei Hsuen's look at 3am

Jared, tired but happy because he get to talk to his dream girl.

I ordered mango juice which was awesome and quenched my thirst and once again, I miss you and I love you was ordered. We love that drink!!

 

Wei Hsuen thinking of someone when drinking I love you....lol

I had much fun, it's been some time since we last hang out, and I really miss those days. And I don't know why I still feel a bit down, until now, even Amman noticed it yesterday and asked me am I alright lol. Well, primary cause would be iddiopathic, but can be secondary due to remorsing about my result =P Or maybe I'm just tired =)

Summative

Today I finished my summative, and I am very depressed because I did really badly. I knew I was ill prepared for it but I still feel upset now because this is my worst result in IMU ever.
I was very poorly prepared this time, I'm very much aware of that. But when I try to tell others, to ask for help, to ask for mental support, nobody believed me.
'Aiya, you always say you know nothing but you always score good results'
'Stop talking nonsense, if you're unprepared then I'm dead'
'Shut up la, you're making me more stress saying you forget stuff, when you actually remember so much'
Well, I did my very best try to cramp everything inside and went for exam. I was happily doing, believing that I managed to answer them quite well. Came out of the exam hall relieved of stress. And not until I went for the feedback session that I really got depressed.
For MCQ, out of 40 questions i got half wrong, exactly half. Then EMQ i got half wrong as well. OSPE and MEQ was alright, wronged here and there.
And after I calculated, for this time I'll get a B- or C+. And I know what eveyone's going to say: 'come on, it's still a pass, most importantly you passed'. I know I passed, but who would be satisfied by a result like this? Well, at least I won't. You can say I'm kiasu or whatever you can think of, but this is not a result to aim for. Sigh.
And after the feedback session, I was really depressed but nobody understands. They are either happy, or they don't believe me.
'Come on, it can't be that bad right? Stop crapping'
'You always say you didn't do well, but you always score A one lah'
'I'm sure you'll get an A don't worry'
'I think I fail leh, you passed so you complain what?'
Was the responses I got after trying to seek for emotional support and some understanding.
Well, fine then, I'll just keep it to myself while cheering myself up the same time. And so I went lunch with the big gang of people in Kuchai Lama, and was quite happy there, happily chatting and quite forgotten about it.
After that went Sunway to watch Ninja Assasin with another big gang of people. And I can't help but feeling upset throughout the whole time which I don't know why the feeling just came, and more especially when the exam was mentioned. That's why I tried to skip all the chat topics about exam.
Watched the movie, quite a nice movie I reckon, action was cool, thrilling, quite a few funny scenes too!
Kinda relaxed me and cheered me up.
After that we went dinner at Asia Cafe then played dota and battlefield in cyber cafe until like 12 am.
Coming back home, I'm emo again due to tiredness and some things I did. Hopefully I'll cheer up tomorrow when I wake up.

Well, this time the result is not unexpected. I've made a decision beginning of this semester to change things and to repair and care about things that I took for granted for. Hence a lot of time spent on the decision I made and less time on studying. So nobody is to blamed for this result, it is just my decision.
Regret the decision? Not really, I achieved what I wanted. In order to gain something, you have to sacrifice something too right? Maybe I should learn from those that can manage their time really good.
Hopefully my result will not affect my PMS choice too much.

忙中偷闲

一个人
拿着一份notes
戴着耳机
mp3 播着张悬的‘喜欢’
独自漫步下楼点一杯neslo
慢慢品尝

多潇洒
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Busy, Busy day

Woke up this morning at around 8.30am, board on to Andrew's 'kancil version of Mercedes' (that's what he claims) at 9am then started our journey to find the dialysis centre in Taman Billion, Cheras. Luckily Amy roughly told us how to go there, and Edmund in the car kinda knows how to get there too, if not it's really a hard place to find. Even so, we almost took the wrong turn and got lost. It was quite scary when Andrew suddenly swayed from middle lane to the left most lane for a turning that if we missed we would end up in Kajang instead, but well, Mercedes cars are quite steady so it was alright. Well, after that to find the dialysis centre is quite easy because it is quite huge.
We arrived just in time, 9.30am, and the nurse took us for a tour around it and explaining things to us. By around 10.30am we already run out of things to do while IMU required us to do until 12.30pm. We talked to patients, saw a few case files (Thomas, Emi and Edmund was there discussing the case and findings so I just stand there and listen =P tsk tsk tsk...all A students, I feel so stupid =P), observed needling and inserting the tubes, saw removing the tubes, saw and understand the dialysis machines, saw the brown tinge on the skin of the patients, saw the thrill that we're supposed to palpate for on the arterious-venous fistula ( it's like a heart beating on your arm).
Because there's nothing left for us to do, we left around 11.30, and went to Sri Petaling to eat.
And right after that, there're 3 lectures starting 2pm. First 2 lectures by Dr Chrysteine on Acute Renal Failure and Chronic Renal Failure and third by Prof Hla Yee Yee on Renal Function. Due to the amount of lectures I'm having today, I took prophylaxis again, coffee =). I know it's not good because I might get dependant on it, but still it's really necessary for me today. Well thanks to it I managed o stay awake 3 lectures, though very tired, and when the 3 lectures ended, I dropped dead.
The first 2 lectures were surprisingly good. I always thought she's a lousy lecturer that simply craps. But end up she proved that she knows her stuff! Though her voice is a bit funny =P
Did my PBL at night because I was too stressed to study, sigh...what a day. Renal system is such killer!!